Can I Live?

I'm Just Saying!

Hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Is anyone out there? LOL.

Anyway. This rain has been kicking my ass. I can't wait for the sun to come out and that money get to flowing. I still ain't got around to asking for that raise I been thinking about. I ain't even been getting enough hours for it to matter. I'm about to take a pay cut just to go to another job where I don't have to worry about the weather. I did a job in the rain last week and it SUCKED. Standing in the rain just getting soaked for over a hour. I could do with out that. I don't mind working when its raining but just standing in one place getting rained on is not the business. I need to charge my camera so I can take pictures at work one day before I don't work there anymore. Its a shame cause I like that little job.

Used To Be

I've been married for a year and a half, I'm just as surprised as everyone else. I always knew I would be married one day. A lot of people say I'm not the same person I used to be and I must agree that I'm not. I used to be in these streets boy doing it live daily. All the homies miss that about me and I know I still have it in me but once you become a family man it becomes a lot to maintain. I got schedules and appointments to keep. Being a father and husband is hard work. Its only 24 hours in a day. I do miss my old life a little and since I ain't figured out a way to balance both like I want to I'll just stick with the one I got now. I'm to damn old to be playing in these streets anyway, these young thundercats ain't got shit to lose.

I'm back to work tomorrow after being off for a couple weeks. I don't like work but I'm happy to go back and get this money. I need to start reading this commercial truck drivers book I picked up around Christmas that I haven't looked at since I got it. I've had my CDL(commercial drivers license) almost 2 years now. I need to get the rest of my endorsements so I can find a better job. I think I want to drive a propane truck but who knows. Long as its 5 days a week and 12 months a year I'm wit it at this point. When I take my test for my endorsements I will have to take my test for my Class C and class A License, possibly my Class M(Motorcycle). That means I might have to take about 6-7 test in one day at the DMV.

Wages

I been looking for driving jobs on careerbuilder and craigslist. I don't understand why these damn jobs don't want to put the fucking wages. I mean I understand why they don't but FUCK! I went on a job interview a couple weeks ago and the fucking guy knew how much I was already making at my current job and still offered like a 3-4 dollar pay decrease and was dead serious with it. Now if I knew the pay was less then I was willing to take I would have never applied.

Its raining like crazy outside and the wind is howling! So im not working because of the rain. NOT GOOD!


Well its finally 2008, Im not sure what that is going to mean in the long run. I don't think a lot is going to change. Im going to go out my way to not procrastinate(I think I spelled that right). Hopefully that will be more then enough to change how things have been going in my life so far.

I need to clean my apartment. its a mess. I have stuff every where. I need some kind of order in this place. I need a good vacuum, mine just broke.